sing it out, and let others fall into you

Tuesday, November 2, 2010 @ 10:14 PM

⌠ November As We Know It. ⌡

Hey everyone!

I can't believe that it's already November. Unfortunately that means cold and snow for me haha. Days are going by, and the days are getting colder and colder >_<

So I just finished my midterms (after a week of hell) and right now I bunch of assignments to do that's due next week and a really big project/presentation that I have to finish within the next two weeks to present. Just when I think I can finally catch a small break I still have a ton of stuff left to do and a lot of reading to cover. Oh the life of being a University Student, it's getting busier and busier with each yeah. Yeesh. Anyways, for the past month of October, I was able to do some fun activities like the Badminton Tournament and celebrating my friend's birthday. Another think is Halloween! Unfortunately I don't have any photos from Halloween (we went out for some sushi) but everything else I have a photos of. :) So here's my photo spam that I haven't done in a while!

Badminton Girls, Me, Val, Julia, Dora, and Mei

Badminton Club Group! Well most of us haha missing a bunch of people

Claire's Birthday~ Us girls being Silly

Getting Personal

Earlier in October, I had a big loss of motivation and hope in doing well in my classes as I mentioned in my previous blog post remember? Well, during my second exam for that course came along last week and I had a major breakdown because I'm very afraid of failing this one course. I know I can always VW but, I can't just keep VW-ing right? It's too costly. Which in return, just makes it seem like I'm really really stupid and pathetic. It's hard for me to feel good about myself whenever I get failing grades, like I'm not worth it for my parents to waste money on me when I can't even pass with good grades. I don't know if I'm being too harsh with myself, but this is how I feel because everyone else around me that's taking that same course is doing so well and then there's me, the idiot who's supposed to be MAJORING in this kind of course in particular.

There's also that feeling that whenever I ask my friends for help, that I just annoy them and then I kinda feel like they just avoid me because I ask them too many things. Pretty negative feelings and thoughts, especially since it's coming from me. I always want to be happy and optimistic, but these days, it's getting bleaker and bleaker for me :( Bleh, starting to get teary-eyed now so onto the next topic.

Music to My Ears

My favorite part of my blog is my "Music to My Ears" section because I truly love music.

Recently Jones Shi (石康军) recently did a lot of covers in a performance. I especially love this one:

He surprises me every time he releases a new video on his Facebook page.
Here are the Lyrics:

天天想你 Thinking About You Everyday

當我佇立在窗前你愈走愈遠我的每一次心跳你是否聽見

As I stand before the window, you’re moving farther and farther away Can you hear every beat of my heart?

當我徘徊在深夜你在我耳邊你的每一句誓言迴盪在耳邊

As I pace in the deep of the night you’re beside me Your every oath resounds beside me

隱隱約約　閃動的雙眼藏著你的羞怯加深我的思念兩顆心的交界你一定會看見只要你願意走向前

So indistinctly, sparkling eyes Hiding your shyness, deepening my yearning I’m certain you can see the border between our two hearts If only you are willing to continue moving forward

天天想你　天天問自己到什麼時候才能告訴你天天想你　天天守住一顆心把我最好的愛留給你(都給妳)

Everyday thinking of you, everyday asking myself When will I finally be able to tell you Everyday thinking of you, everyday a constant heart My best love is reserved for you (all for you)

Till next time! Blogging out!